Deception

February 10, 2017

Deception has been gnawing at my soul
I have hidden in the darkness for so long
Forgotten, are the dreams of a once young girl
Overwhelmed by the loss of myself
It has become difficult to control erratic emotions
Compulsive
Impulsive
Truth set aside for comfortable lies
Droning and nagging
The pain returns once again
A reminder of my forgotten dreams
Looking in the mirror I see
The part of myself that frightens me
I must keep it confined
I must show restraint
Or my true desires will destroy me
Loss and endurance has me
Longing to surrender completely
To the deceit which creates contentment